shutup...letdownwind sifted through my fingers, like waterand liquid soap that contained my compulsive obsessions. lingering smoke could never reach you, only the faint scentof my cologne.i shut the windows up.no more words that bridged two cities. they never were.i could still hearthose hollow sounds drift from your lips.at times, i'll admit i was calmed.i tried voicing what you would have said, butnothing here seemed less empty.soi turned outwards only because there wasn't room for me here.you're everywherebut i can't see you.i glanced at the phone sittingstill by my side, i couldn't stop.i cleared my call histor